end of the year v3

(album: my mind - 2019)

No writer's block
Lately, I just never go and write a lot
Got minor shock from all the problems bought up in that item shop
Erase my thoughts, and I don't wanna think, just wanting time to stop
It's moving fast, I'll slow it down
With all the drugs inside my socks (Yeah)
I'm caught in caution tape, coughing up all the commentary
Kinda acting convoluted, truth is life is getting scary (Damn)
Not liking college, I'm constantly overthinking
Rode a wave to inspire, but sadly my shit been sinking
Point the blame at myself like I shot up a dirty mirror
My momma told me to quit it, but sorry I couldn't hear her
Appearance is what they care about
Clearance on all my whereabouts
Came in contact with gods, but I couldn't man up to stare 'em down (Why?)
I'm feeling less human
More of a mystery
Should I listen to destiny
Aphrodite been testing me
Accolades and them escalades
Every problem gon' escalate
Demonstrate why they hesitate
Never making it anyways

You'll have to do better than this, [?]
Alright

I think too deep when I'm speaking
I need that puddle mentality
Want my friends to be proud of me
That doesn't look like it's happening
Want my voice to be louder
So put me on Montreality
If I can't be professional, send me back to Academy (Wow)
They don't think I'm good enough, whatever
I put my songs up on Reddit, they said I wasn't clever

That's weird
But now, it's like at this point
I don't know what I'm supposed to do, you know?
I mean, I could tell you right now
Everybody thinks I'm a joke, but
Do they even listen to me?

I'm not inflating my ego, but man, I think that I'm next
I proved myself to myself
That helped improving my head
I swear I think I'm important
Wait 'till my whip is imported
Colors in different assortments
My foreign baby is gorgeous
I only rap for the people who wanna be something special
That recognition is everything
Mindset winning me medals
I don't mind ripping the petals off, it's never annoying
I heard 'em talk, and they finally told me they enjoyed it