mess

(album: downpour - 2019)

I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt
Every girl I loved had left me lying in the dirt
I'm face down in my own mistakes
It's like I like them being dumped all over the place

I'm a mess, and I know it
No I can't get a grip I'm never coping
And you're so bad and you know this
Why do all the good girls seem to keep me out of focus

And you don't know how much I care
For loving people that were never there
And you don't know how bad it feels
Your words cut deep, goodbyes don't heal

If you love me let me go, that's what I say
As I'm taking 205 right to her driveway
I'm a mess so depressed it's no surprise though
And fuck my ex, she's a wreck, she's a psycho

I'm a loaded gun, yeah my lyric's ammunition
But I get tongue tied when I get her in my system
I can't ever sleep unless she's sleeping on my chest
And when I'm home I'm in my zone but I don't eat I'm fucking stressed

What's the point of moving on if you can't smile when you wake up
Make your coffee, start the car and chase the pay stub
I don't work a job and if I did I'd fucking hate it
Rather pay my rent from writing songs down in my basement

And you don't know how much I care
For loving people that were never there
And you don't know how bad it feels
Your words cut deep, goodbyes don't heal