Anxxiety

(album: Nosebleed (Unmasked) - 2020)

My anxiety is not helping me forget you
But I guess I really don't want to
And while I'm trying to figure out what I should text you
Have to remind myself that I already lost you
I know sobriety would probably be a good call
Been breaking down my body like it's drywall
But you've been flying through my memory like a baseball
So I've been running through what I would say if you called

I never meant to hurt you
I just had a lot I had to go through
Had a lot of shit I probably should've told you
Like how beautiful you are and that I love you
Switching up the layout of my bedroom
So I don't have to wake up in the spot we used to
My anxiety is not helping me forget you
But I guess I really don't want to
I guess I really don't want to

My anxiety is not helping me forget you
Though honestly I really don't want to

Rolled up in an Uber to your spot the other night
Left my crew back on the tour to try and make this shit alright
I showed up at your door, I had my bag and I was begging
And I know that you weren't having none of it, I understand it
I certainly do not deserve another fucking second
But when you hit me up and said we're done my plane already landed
Trying to be a man and say goodbye to you, no crying
But I fucking miss you, there ain't no point in lying, God damn

I never meant to hurt you
I just had a lot I had to go through
Had a lot of shit I probably should've told you
Like how beautiful you are and that I love you
Switching up the layout of my bedroom
So I don't have to wake up in the spot we used to
My anxiety is not helping me forget you
But I guess I really don't want to

It's been a war making peace with my ego
Just when I think that I'm free though
He got something up his sleeve though
He ain't ever letting me go
Trying to murder my ego
Just when I think that I'm free though
He fashions me a new halo
He ain't ever letting me go
It's been a war making peace with my ego
Just when I think that I'm free though
He got something up his sleeve though
He ain't ever letting me go
Trying to murder my ego
Just when I think that I'm free though
He fashions me a new halo
He ain't ever letting me go

He ain't ever letting me go