Replaced

(album: When Stars Align - 2019)

I know you never had pictured me leaving
Breaking up is never easy
We're dead now, and I'm grieving
I was there whenever you would need me
Even all the times that you'd deceive me
Every single night that you went drinking
I was sitting home, feeling all alone
Wishing you could see the way you treat me
I feel so broken I just wanna die
I gave a second chance a million times
I live my truth, you a living lie
Cause the same issues with different guys
It's the same bullshit just a different time
This is your loss girl, it isn't mine
I am not perfect, but I fucking tried
You would make mistakes and then you'd fucking hide
Now we're gone and it's dead and buried
You lost forever just for temporary
What were you thinking? You weren't thinking clearly
All the memories, rest in the cemetery
My daughter asked about you, don't know what to tell her
I feel hella guilty when I say "forget her"
I gotta be strong and hold it together
You're a memory and it hurts to remember
So I block it out, this is too much
My confidence tanked, I'm in a rut
And lately I feel I'm not good enough
And you may be gone, but the damage stuck
I would've died for you, would've tried for you
I would always try to make the time for you
I would never ever tell a lie to you
Even though we split, I still feel tied to you
And, I never wanted to split
I never wanted to drift
I never wanted another man to meet your mother all over again
I never wanted the end, I didn't want any of this
I wanted to wrap a ring around your finger, maybe even have a couple of kids
I guess it is what it is
I lost my hope, who we love kills us the most
I'm so afraid to get close
We are just people until we all turn into ghosts
A future we'll never know
Yeah, it's something we'll never know
And sometimes you gotta let go of what kills you, even if it kills you to let go, damn