Agayu's Revelation

(album: CLEAR 2: SOFT LIFE - 2023)

I noticed that in my relationships I have a tendency to make people crumble
Into like dust
It's like really pathetic to watch
I say my relationships 'cause I don't give my friendships and, um like, my family relationships enough energy
Like, if you're just being ignorant I'll just let you be ignorant and block you
But you know the dick do something a little different to you
It make you wanna try to help a nigga
Make you think you got super powers and shit, and can change a nigga, you cannot
But I used to think for a long time, and that affected my self-esteem as well, like, that it was me
Like, that it was my fault, and I'm like, oh my God, what am I doing yo these niggas?
This is crazy, every single time
But you know then one of my spiritual guides came to me and I will never forget
Told me to stop working with people who are made of glass if you are made of steel
And that shit hit me
I was like, oh, I was searching for this answer for hella long
Like, why would I think I'm crumbling people who were never strong in the first place?
They're fragile
Their egos are fragile
They're not quite ready to face themselves, maybe now or ever, so they crumble
The slightest rough patch that hits in life and then you gotta boss up and be strong, and do what you gotta do, crumble
And then you know most people don't like to think, um, I'm a thinker
So, now I done walked my ass up in here with this introspection, and it's like I'm a mirror and I'm making you see yourself
And I'm presenting your strengths, your weaknesses, who you are deep inside, not who you portray to be
Your priorities, what you value the most, what needs to be worked on and how we can work on it, solutions
Dun dun dun, niggas is scared of solutions
But, um, 'cause we got to have balance, you know?
Niggas be like, "Whoa whoa whoa, bitch, I wasn't ready to do all that
I guess they thought 'cause I had face tats, and
Usually niggas meet me in a real ratchet ass environment, doing some ratchet ass shit
I might've fucked you on the first night, we might have had or been smoking and drinking, and carrying on and doing whatever else
But at the end of all that ghetto shit, we're going to evolve mentally, spiritually, physically, financially, um, emotionally
And we are going to have balance
'Cause that is the only way to maintain longevity
And a healthy relationship
Can't stay stagnant, uh, for too long
And what always ends up happening is I get the same answer literally every time, "Bitch you think you perfect?"
And I just keep working on myself and keep evolving
And you know one monkey don't stop the show, so I end up doing everything that I was trying to get them to do for myself
And every time I come out of a relationship, I come out smarter (Check)
I come out healthier (Check)
Happier (Check)
Richer (Check)
Finer (Check)
Thicker (Check)
You know, shit that I was doing in the beginning of the relationship that was toxic will come to a complete halt, and I just be going up up and up
Up up and away
Away from that bullshit