If U Only Knew

(album: Better View - 2022)

(Ooh) if you only knew
(Ooh) if you only–

I come off like I'm put together
When you see me, you might think I've got it all
If you only, if you only knew
I can just turn it on whenever
Everyone assumes that I'm so clever, no
If they only, if they only knew

No one wants to hear that I'm alone
It's the part of me that they will never know
How long till somebody really sees me

If you, if you really love me
Let me know, let me know
If you, if you really love me
Let me know, I really need to know

If you only knew (ooh)
If you only knew (ooh)
If you only–

Silence brings out all of my demons
Left alone with all of my racing thoughts
If you only, if you only knew
How tired, how scared
How I need a breath of fresh air
If you only, if you only knew

If you (You), if you really love me (if you love me)
Let me know, let me know (whoa)
If you (You), if you really love me (You really love me, yeah)
Let me know, I really need to know

If you only knew (ooh)
If you only knew (oh, ooh)
If you only–
(Ooh) if you only knew
(Ooh) if you only knew

What if we made an idol of our self-discovery?
And what if self-denial was the key to becoming free?
We over project abundantly when we're insecure 'bout what's underneath
Come and see
I don't like what's inside, but I can't change it
I don't need a better me, I need a new creation
I know the Agent of Change who truly sustains it
And I display I'm okay, but You know that I'm breaking
You see the shadows that lurk, You see me battle my worst
Remind me healing comes after the hurt
I feel shackled and cursed
I just act and rehearse
When the director says "cut," will you still see the worth?
What if my worth isn't a wage I earn?
What if my worth is a reflection of Your image made?
And what if my value doesn't fade and turn?
What if the value has been set by the price You paid?

'Cause You, You really love me
When I don't, even when I don't
Oh You, You really love me, yeah
So hold me close, never let me go