Giving Up

(album: Seasons - 2018)

When did I get lost
I'm losing sight and I can't stop
Reflecting all the doubt
And I'm blaming everyone else
I've been pushing out and shutting down
The ones who been looking out
If I let them in to see
They'll look at me so differently

I have to take control to find out
The moment I went wrong and hide out
If the worst is yet to come so right now
I sit here in silence
Afraid that I might be giving up

I still don't understand
Why they stick around, why they give a fuck
Everything I've said
Just makes it worse and I push my luck
In time I will come around (come around)
And I'll see the sun if I don't drown (don't drown)
So many apologies I lose count
Waiting for the day we just sit back and laugh it out

Don't wanna be damaged
Don't wanna be worthless
So, I'm never losing sight

I have to take control to find out
The moment I went wrong and hide out
If the worst is yet to come so right now
I sit here in silence
Afraid that I might be giving up

(Whoa... No... I'm giving...)

Say we're fine, say in once, I just gotta hear it
Paranoia is taking over, I know I can feel it
And I wanna close my eyes
Always trouble to my left so I'm looking to my right, uh
And it don't matter cause it comes where I go
When I'm home in New York or London and Tokyo
And trust me I can't explain it or let alone contain it
I'm giving up on me and I didn't write this just for entertainment

I have to take control to find out
The moment I went wrong and hide out
If the worst is yet to come so right now
I sit here in silence
Afraid that I might be giving up

I'm giving up
Afraid that I might be giving up
I'm giving up
I might be giving up