Stalemate

(album: Out Loud - 2022)

Let's write a story with our eyes
Someone said that you'd be here tonight
And I didn't think I wanted to believe them
Not like I could go a second without thinking
About the kind of feeling that you keep a secret
But if I don't know if I even really feel it
Then why am I finding it so hard to conceal it
Are we gonna act like we got all night?

'Cause I tried to stay away from a
Certain kind of tension tonight
I don't think that we can write, can't fight
I'm flush red, caught dead
I'm swallowing my words
I think I'm caught in a stalemate
I'm caught in a stalemate

I'm calling your bluff
It was always heading towards a night like this
And I don't think I'm ready yet
But I'll never be as ready as I am right now
I give you the real me
You give me the power when
I don't have a thing to lose
I wanna believe it's true

'Cause I tried to stay away from a
Certain kind of tension tonight
I don't think that we can write, can't fight
I'm flush red, caught dead
I'm swallowing my words
I think I'm caught in a stalemate
I'm caught in a stalemate

Now my face is on fire
Inhibitions that I leave behind
Like emotions that I'm slowly getting tired of
Like risks I only take when I'm fired up
But second chances never come when your guard's up
So I leave it at the bottom of an empty cup
I think your eyes say a thousand different words
And everybody else is a blur

'Cause I tried to stay away from a
Certain kind of tension tonight
I don't think that we can write, can't fight
I'm flush red, caught dead
I'm swallowing my words
I think I'm caught in a stalemate
I'm caught in a stalemate

I think I'm caught in a stalemate
I'm caught in a stalemate