Not Forever

(album: Tsu Me - 2013)

Just hoping for the better, still indulging worse
Got a deal and death waiting, wonder which coming first
Been through some sh... it's effed up, it make you wanna curse
When God call, that's a one way, comfy hearse
Dear Father, my homies be still banging
I'm ripping, tripping and hanging
Not bragging, wait I'm just saying
Don't do much praying, not bragging again, just saying
Along with survival comes slaying
We animals speaking of preying
It's be strong or become prey and
That mean it's kill or be killed, I'm just saying
You can picture my whole hood when you listen
Can't pinpoint it but it's different
And sometimes I hang with strangers to ensure I ain't different
I mean it kinda make sense, yeah it kinda make sense if you listen
If he never fell down how he know what's up?
And even when you know everything you don't know enough

I start to think like, "Will I make it back home?"
Then my mind start to roam
For a minute like, "Where home really at?"
Is it where I pay my bills?
Wherever the fuck I lay my heart?
Take off my shoes, put my chain, lay my hat?

Another bad turn, is this a lesson learned?
I'm driving pointless, no maps and nobody pointing
Subjected to slinging poison
No judge, oh we grind whether selling shit or rap
Got homies tryna reach mils like it's levels to this trap
We hit the gas, don't pay attention to speed
That fine print line win and I clearly quote as I read
"He who want what he want must use what he need"
If Heaven got a section for real I request to be with G's
Hoodie on 'cause the feds watching
Finger up 'cause they forever hating
And they be swearing that they close
But I lapped them all twice—that's the closest type of separation
No more questions, no more answers, no more reasons
Another day, another time, whole change of season
Close the door, hit the light, turn off the phone
Start to think like will I make it back home?

I start to think like, "Will I make it back home?"
Then my mind start to roam
For a minute like, "Where home really at?"
Is it where I pay my bills?
Wherever the fuck I lay my heart?
Take off my shoes, put my chain, lay my hat?