Where Have You Been?

Shit, it feel like yesterday, I wanted to dress like you
Hella bitches, I was watching, wanted a Lex like you
Ratchet on my right side, on the left Bible
Looking in the mirror – fuck, I look just like you
I'm older now and I'm understanding women
Shit, you was just probably different
'Cause Mommy was busy bitching
But your distance took me right up off the court
And put me in the kitchen
To the blocks, still daydreaming about the court visions
Used to stress over mistimes, still do
Some niggas ain't know my name, I was just lil you
Distance made me question, was he kin of me?
Like fuck being "lil you," they gon' remember me
Can you guess when I lost my virginity?
You put something into me that made you a enemy
Protect who?! Support what?!
Shit, I don't think you came to court once

Daddy, where'd you go? You just walked away
I'm feeling like I never needed you
Every time I'd see the mirror I looked away
('Cause I looked just like you)
Mommy said you was coming back to stay (Mommy lied!)
Said fuck it and [?] (I tried!)
I wasn't waiting for you for another day
(Would still be standing by that door if I ain't realize)

I can't cry for my mistakes, but it really woulda been great
Ain't have to forget me
I woulda forgave you if you came late
But you didn't, now I'm hanging with them gangs late
Before I knew it, it was coke, dope, same plate
The shackled hands, chained waist
Looked at Momma in that pained face
Like, "Where'd her boy go?" 'cause she don't see the same face
Sheriff keep telling a nigga like, "Sir, please stand straight!"
Tired of looking at this judge in his damn face
Momma ate more than she could shit
Every time I looked back, it just made a nigga sick
Fought the streets alone, you ain't defend me
Went and replaced that empty space with a semi
No time to think about why Daddy ain't get me
When I'm torn between these .38's or 12-12 skinnies
Once I stopped playing ball you was done with me
But I still got a shot, it's just a gun with me
There's so much shit to say, I need another verse
This song would never end if I was talking about my mother hurt
It's for that lil' nigga who Daddy never walked through the doors
Never got cleaned up, he never had chores
Who know how he feel 'cause he never had joys
If he ain't teach you they draw too, you better have force
Never told me it could happen in broad day
I had to find out the hard way
You got a family now and I respect that
And somewhere down the line I want just that
Wife, kids, dog, big house – yup, just that
Sound about right, trying to figure where I was left at
Tug of war with your wife and shit
My hand shaking, hand shaking, trying to write this shit
Just needed a ear, I've been through all type of shit
Movie clips, your boy coulda got life and shit
Movie clips, your boy coulda got life and shit

Daddy, where'd you go? You just walked away
I'm feeling like I never needed you
Every time I'd see the mirror I looked away
('Cause I looked just like you)
Mommy said you was coming back to stay (Mommy lied!)
Said fuck it and [?] (I tried!)
I wasn't waiting for you for another day
(Would still be standing by that door if I ain't realize)