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(album: Cryptic Collection 3 - 2004)

"And I'm sorry I had a fucking mental breakdown, how many times did you...
could you be normal if someone disrespected your dead father every chance they got?"

All This (all this)...

I can't remember your face

All this...

No one can take your place

All this (all this)...

I can't remember your face

All this pain and animosity

It's not everyday I get to sit around and chat,
Sit down and think maybe even talk about, that shit just drives me crazy,
Fucking me up.
I'm outta luck like a slut with nobody to fuck,
Somebody talk to me, hear me out, lend me an ear,
Before I lose it on society and do it so Violently Fearer of fear, hands sweaty, losing my breath,
I'm sitting with death, somebody sitting on my chest,
Best remedy's revenge on people who wouldn't listen,
Cheeks glisten cause I'm crying, my vision is so violent,
Didn't worry cause I'm losing it.
Abusing anybody that's confusing this with lying or me trying to get attention,
Sention on my mind, all I think about is dying,
In spite of me living in Hell, breaking me down,
Outta touch with reality, fuck it I'm out,
Everybody in this mother fuckers hearing me now,

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna lose you, but I lost you!
I can't remember your face
Never gonna let go, never gonna back down
No One Can take your place
Why did you leave?
Where did you go?
I don't know, why did you just go away
And Leave me here with
All this pain and animosity?

I'm so lost without my loved ones can't seen to let go.
Why do I keep breathing?
Does God want me to die slow?
On the edge I stand looking at the past on wondering how long I'm aloud to carry on so many left that was just to close.
At times I feel all alone and I just can't cope.
Why did they have to go?
Why did they have to leave?
If it's not family then it's the homies from the streets.
My mind's set not to take that shit, but I gotta stay strong for the sake of my kids.
(Hi daddy)
How close does the soul gotta get to make you want to slit your wrist after they heart quits?
It's so hard to you lose in life but even harder to recover, specially when memories start to smother, you can't run so just take that pain, 'cause I'm gonna always hold on to your name remembering....

[Chorus]

It's everyday that the anger seems to be killing me off,
It's kinda nice to have a chance to talk,
Or rather have you, listen to me,
You always listen to me no matter what state of mind I appeared to be visting, you were there for me
Even when I said I was outta my mind,
You were the one that said give it some time,
And I would find I could put the pieces back together again, you were the one that trusted me til the end,
I can't pretend that I never had faith in you,
I was only afraid,
I knew what was going on, but didn't know what to say I was so young, feeling like my soul was torn, coming to grips with the fact you ain't coming home no more,
All this madness, and all this pain,
Made something break inside brain, and all this hate, and all this time,
Made me reline my mind and I find that...

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