Don't Do It

(album: Prophecy - 2020)

And I don't wanna live like this
I'm on my own
And I don't wanna leave right now
But I'm all alone

Never thought I'd try suicide
But my mind is a prison
I'm peeking through the blinds
And I know my decision will be scrutinized
But you can't judge a man until you looking through his eyes
Cause they wanna call me selfish
Wake up every day the same and I feel helpless
Everyone around me telling me life's precious
But all I feel is pain so pardon me if I'm skeptic
I've been feeling sick
Sick of feeling worthless
Sick of acting like every day's been so perfect
Sick of feeling pain
Fake smiles on the surface
Sick of waking up knowing I don't have a purpose
And I don't wanna die, but I know it's for the best
Trying to find peace, but I know there's nothing left
Only time I feel bliss is the moment of my death
Maybe I can finally smile as I take my last breath
Try to tun a page, I'm stuck in the same chapter
Searching for some love, I ain't finding what I'm after
Swear these damn thoughts controlling me like a cancer
What's the point of life, I can never find the answer
Damn
And I don't wanna make my mother cry
But all the pain I've been feeling is being multiplied
So when she finally comes to terms that her son has died
Tell her I'm looking for happiness on the other side

And I don't wanna live like this
I'm on my own
And I don't wanna leave right now
But I'm all alone
Cause I don't wanna feel this pain
I'd rather die right now
I just wanna be okay
Oohohoh

Wait, before you make your decision
Take a second, put yourself in your family's position
Know you feeling like death is the only way but it isn't
Know the pains hard but I swear it's just here to visit
So please
Don't do it, I can promise that it doesn't help
The pain'll pass, you're passing the pain to someone else
You got a beautiful soul, Don't make em suffer
I know you'll get through, I know that you got it covered
You're made special, kind loving and gentle
Even if you can't see just know that you got potential
I know you suffer through the day tryna hold composure
But god gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers
I don't wanna see the day that you fall apart
So keep pushing, a fighter I know that's who you are
Even know you feel like you live with a broken heart
Just know the darkest nights make the brightest stars
And I promise it gets better with time
I know it doesn't feel like it but depression it lies
You deserve much more so just sever the ties
Between those toxic thoughts and you're intelligent mind
I know it's tough when you're battling depression
It's hard to fake a smile with the pain that you're suppressing
Your mind plays tricks and it got you second guessing
But people care about you and need the feel of your presence
You got family they love you try to remember
I know you think you're nothing but in the mind you're a treasure
Times get rough and I know you feeling the pressure
But I've been through it too and I swear that it gets better

And I don't wanna live like this
I'm on my own
And I don't wanna leave right now
But I'm all alone
Cause I don't wanna feel this pain
I'd rather die right now
I just wanna be okay
Oohohoh