Into The Shadows Of My Embrace

(album: Eskimo Snow - 2009)

I conquered my own childhood silence
And now the world is my lit confessional marquee
But it'd take a busload of high school sucker girls
To wash those hospitals off me

Oh, am I clean?
Nineteen
They said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time
They said sex will have left you aged normally
A-And so I guess it's sorta like smoking and walking at the same time
In that it will have left you aged normally

Oh, am I clean?
Lord, please
Why me?

I wish I could feel close to somebody but I don't feel nothing
Now they say I need to quit doing all this random fff
Now I think my upstairs neighbor hears me masturbating
And there's other ones peeping through the slips in my curtains
And I never got a name for my shady compulsion
Cause I messed up and kissed my shrink in a Jersey City hotel room
And I know saying all this is public should make me feel funny
But you gotta yell something out you'd never tell nobody

We found a dead fox and a dozen matchbox cars
When we cut back the hedges on Cortelyou Place
How many got lost, left so long they grew moss cause
They recoiled into the shadows of my embrace

We found a dead fox and a dozen matchbox cars
When we cut back the hedges on Cortelyou Place
How many got lost, left so long they grew moss cause
They recoiled into the shadows of my embrace

Am I clean?
Lord, please
Why me?