Stand By For The Moment

(album: Good On It All - 2019)

The day we got back
I promised to keep the work flow
It hurts so much to know
I never even came through
About one week home
I felt the same presence
Standing behind
Every move that
Never got a mention
I miss my fucking homies
They the only ones who know me
Past all the imagery
That got me in this holding
I know you wanna get through
But can you just stand by for the moment?

Imma take this fucking shit to my grave
Baby I just hope you do the same
I just really hope that nothing went in vein
I just wanna hear you scream my name
One last time
Before I go back home
Baby, I'm always high
Yeah girl, that's what you know
That's right, I always lied
And that just goes to show
You loved a fucking mess
My heart's a vacant hole

Bust my ass in welfleet
Trying to staying healthy
Bout broke my wrist
Off the hip
Trying stick the
Damn 3 flip
Man this life a trip
And I got your girl in my whip
She be telling me where to go
To suck this dick
Baby I'm just down to
Talk my shit, I'm over it
Can I guess what you're thinking girl
You wanna take this life for a whirl
Come on the road
And let me show you
What this life can go for

When you're not by my side, I'm dying constantly
You knew me once as the one you thought I'd never be
Its gettin harder giving everyone the best of me
I'm wide awake and I got these flowers next to me

Darling, rest in peace
Now are you listening?
I'm better off
Finding solace in the symmetry
Back on the road
Steady balling, feeling great
If we ain't in your city
Bet we scheming for the day

This industry can fuck right off
They haven't helped a bit
Done this all on my own
With the help of good friends
Stacking hit after hit
True fans listening
Could use a guiding hand
Anytime help is offered
I shove it to the side
And say I'm good on that shit
My ego hurts my career
In many of ways
My pride hurts my conscious
On darkest of days
Why am I so worried
About getting paid?

Because every second there is always money to be made
Me and Chris going to the shop my mans we tryna get this bread
Sipping on some cardi, let it go straight to our head
Everyday's a party when you're running from that dread
If you paint a picture of me won't you make it red?
Cuz black is so outdated and I'm far from golden
Yeah these last few months have been nothing but a blur
I was in my past life once, found myself under the dirt

This retrospection has me dizzy
Self destruction keeps me busy
Everything else gotta go
Don't got no time for anybody
Bitch, I've been here all alone
No need to bother acting funny

No don't bother acting funny
We can see right through the jokes
Why don't you just pull up
So we can catch the smoke
Yeah we making moves
But doing it on our own time
If we ain't make it out the basement
Did we do it right?