Social Anxiety

(album: I UR BOY - 2020)

Social anxiety
Is bringing me down
When I was on top of things
You held me to the ground
But I'm tired and I'm nervous
And I'm running out of time
Holy fuck
You ruined my whole life

I built up the smallest thing
And spilt it everywhere
I tried to express myself
But you hate it when I swear
And now I'm trapped inside the ego
Of a body filled with doubt
Holy frick
I'm never getting out

I talked to my oldest friend
Searching for support
You're bad conversation, man
I read in the report
But I'm planning conversations
So I don't run out of things to say
What the hell?
There must be another way

The pain is often real
And I'm incapable of rest
Hold the phone
I never caught my breath
Lazy and unmotivated
Living off of debt
Oh my God
I never tried my best

I'm writing an apology
To my future self
'Cause social anxiety
I thought couldn't be helped
When there's seven billion people
In a world I don't understand
Please, no more
I'll never try again