far from perfect

(album: The Start Of Something Terrible - 2022)

I need to learn how to love myself
If I don't, then no one will

My friends call me often, I have a problem
My own skin is a place I don't know, the meres of hunting
You know what I wanna be, grim
But if I do not, help me, the world all empty
The cold gets colder and I can't stop shaking
The walls get closer and I can't stop pacing
I need time to be away from everything
But I do not trust me with my own well-being
I'm far from perfect, don't call me your idol
I'm always searching for answers from my own survival

I need to learn how to love myself
If I don't, then no one will
I keep my hands around my throat
I squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal
I need to learn how to love myself
If I don't, then no one will
I keep my hands around my throat
I squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal

It could be any day, I know
It could be any day, I know
It could be any day, I know
It could be any day
But not today, oh, not today
I wanna break through and escape
These chains have made my mind a maze
So I will take what I can take
All these emotions roll a phase
My bones could break from all the pain
I put myself through every day
But not today, oh, not today

I need to learn how to love myself
If I don't, then no one will
I keep my hands around my throat
I squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal

Again, I was never complacent
I had a dream, but I even chased it
I had a heart inside of my chest
And I been with the love of everyone I met
If I met me now, would I be my friend?
These wounds won't heal 'til I make amends
With every word that I ever said
To myself to make me lose my head