dead inside

(album: in loving memory - 2022)

There's a picture in my head
Running through my brain
My hearts a burning shed
Don't let me in, I'll never stay
These scars I cover up
I carry all this pain
Numb this broken world
I feel you in my veins

I'm already faking the words I say
I've already taken too much today

I'm in love with all the voices inside my head
It's just so beautiful inside but inside I'm dead
Just another broken dream in my lonely bed
You're so beautiful, but inside I'm dead
I'm so dead inside

There's a memory on my mind
It keeps on coming back
Made a promise to myself I wouldn't get this bad
Now I'm lying wide awake
Sleepless in my bed
My hearts a frozen lake
There's ice inside my chest

I'm already faking the words I say
I've already taken too much today
I'm looking for love in an empty space
Every stranger that I meet, I swear to God, I see your fucking face
(It is a shame)

I'm in love with all the voices inside my head
It's just so beautiful inside but inside I'm dead
Just another broken dream in my lonely bed
You're so beautiful, but inside I'm dead

Even though I'm still alive, I feel dead inside
It's that fact that it's so wrong, but it feels so right
Why do I feel all alone when I'm by your side?
Even though I'm still alive, I feel dead inside
I'm so dead inside

Tell me how it's gonna be when you don't know me at all
Remember how you used to feel
Now I wake up, stare at the wall
Tell me how it's gonna be better off if I'm not around
Six feet under the ground

Even though I'm still alive, I feel dead inside
It's that fact that it's so wrong, but it feels so right
Why do I feel all alone when I'm by your side?
Even though I'm still alive, I feel dead inside
I'm so dead inside
I'm so dead inside
I'm so dead inside
I'm so dead inside

I'm in love with all the voices inside my head
It's just so beautiful inside but inside I'm dead
Another broken dream in my lonely bed
You're so beautiful, but inside I'm dead
I'm so dead inside