Jaded

(album: Spit My Last Breath - 1997)

This is my rat race

I'm alone and lost to this world
Happiness is something I can't afford
Thoughts of what could have been
Never entered my mind cause there's nothing there when I began
I tried to fit in but failed
Like a speeding train I've derailed
I've gone down the useless path
That's only heading for the sacred nowhere land
Don't want to see you smile
Jealousy and envy boils inside my head
The pressures of life have tripled since I
Became a fucking man

Don't feel whole inside
I'm alone
Better of if I had died
I'm alone
I raise my hands to the sky
I'm alone
And ask god why am I still alive
Lady luck turned her back on me
I'm alone
Opportunity never knocked on my door
I'm alone
Then you wonder and ask me
Why I'm so jaded and angry

I'm alone
I'm alone
I'm alone
Never needed anyone
I'm alone
I'm alone
I'm alone
I accept my destiny

Being ignored has spurned in me
Contempt for anyone that I see
There's no cure for what I've got
I've tried and fight but the pin is nonstop
I'd isolate myself
But necessity had locked me in
It's like a fucking sin
It's here where I belong and where I've always been

Don't feel whole inside
I'm alone
Better of if I had died
I'm alone
I raise my hands to the sky
I'm alone
And ask god why am I still alive
Lady luck turned her back on me
I'm alone
Opportunity never knocked on my door
I'm alone
Then you wonder and ask me why I'm so jaded and angry

I'm alone
I'm alone
I'm alone
Never needed anyone
I'm alone
I'm alone
I'm alone
I accept my destiny

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So many times before
Friends and family will stab you in your heart
There's nowhere you can turn when your world is falling apart