You Still Believe In Me?

(album: Adults!!!... Smart!!! Shithammered!!! And Excited By Nothing!!!!!! - 2010)

I came in from the storm
And the television's on
Celebrities enact fictionalized tales
How could my boring life compete?
And I thought about the drugs
How I thought they fixed my brain
Until I was in the dark
Rattling containers, scribbling garbage to myself

I need constant attention
Or else I'm gonna get distracted
But even if you tell me something
I can't guarantee I'm listening

I hear "Ba ba ba ba ba..."

I've never been in love
But I saw Brian Wilson once
I was drunk and screamed too loud
Over the falsetto in "You Still Believe in Me."
And I thought about the way
His catastrophes made everything okay
Until I watched the fire fade
And former dayglo embers turned to ashy greys and blacks
One exhausted triple encore, unplugged bass around his neck
I know fires can't last forever, but I need to find a match

'Cause these days, fuck, I'm tired
I used to be an awesome listener
But now I just drift in and out
Or get pulled away by beats and measures
Like I don't have a choice but failure
And running from a brighter future

It's never take me back, never take me back
Never take me back, 'cause I'm not sorry
It's never take me back, never take me back
Never take me back, 'cause I'm not sorry
You would never take me back, never take me back
Never take me back, 'cause I'm not sorry
For all the times I ran away or wasted my vacation days
It's something I can't bring myself to say

I need constant attention
Or else I'm gonna get distracted
But even if you tell me something
I can't guarantee I'm listening

And these days, fuck, I'm tired
I used to be an awesome listener
But now I just drift in or out
Or get pulled away by beats and measures
Like I don't have a choice but failure
And running from a brighter future

And all the times I ran away and wasted my vacation days
I'm sorry is something I can never say