trying

(album: hypnagogia - 2018)

Okay

I hold onto patience for them
And reflect their mannerisms when I can't focus
Tired of selfish things I've said never but never really spoken
I can't take back what I did when I forgot
So I lack poise and yeah I noticed
But I drove it into the ground like it was poison
And I said I got a problem, will you show me?
But just because I need your help don't mean it's important
And now...

None of us knows, Major. We don't know who we are
You know
We don't know where we are
Maybe we're on a spaceship
You know
Going to another planet
Maybe we're all insane
You know
Or maybe this is all a mirage, an illusion
Perhaps that's who we are...

Just know I'm trying
But I faked you out on my end
And behind those shaded words
I partake in limbo, not violence
Cause I'm just trying to feel like
More than my entry
I can't tell by deceit I'm alright and
It's 'bout time I show I've been lying 'cause I can't wait back for it here
The only fear I'm in love with is pointless
I don't need luck I need somebody's help for a minute
'Cause I've tried long enough
Pray I lost, I am done

Change my mind 'cause I'll be broken if there's nothing left to say

Just know I'm trying
But within a second it's timed in
Minding every word, and it's taking over afraid to love
But I will keep you around
You say I'm onto something, I doubt it
I find God in mind
Now I'm waking up and taking on my pride