If Only

(album: The Journal Of An Evil Genius - 2014)

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I must apologize first to the label that I
Had an altercation with I didn't mean to be the
Pre-conceived diva stereotypical rapper
I just think they was forgetting you was dealing with that
Bugzy the don dapper number one rapper
The back in the day scrapper, never lost nada
And I've never been a back stabber
Cos I'm not unlike you
So I've never wore a crap swagger
And I know the label wasn't major
But the money the offer that I made a month later
I paid the bills off so now I'm coming off the radar
Fuck a music career I couldn't care if you're a millionaire
So you can pay for your friends keep the tables and the champers
And keep looking down your nose at them gang bangers
Take the piss out of everyone else but every CD you make is gonna sit on the shelf
Anyway swiftly moving on mentioning no names
I saved the nigga that was on his Kurt Cobain
I topped his money up he gave me the spare room I gave him hope I told him we'll be there soon
His mummy let me stay when he get locked away
I've never met such a kind woman til' this day and then come the day he got outta the jail house
He gave me a room I gave him a whole house but still they don't appreciate ya
You could be the very best they'll still abbreviate ya
They resent ya when you're a [?] it's the way that it works
Well let me show them the way that it hurts when I succeed
You can try and copy my flex but you're not me
Keep a snake as your right hand man you'll never live to count 5 gram that's a fact
Tell 'em Bugzy said that watch dis lot
I'm an enthusiastic happy and optimistic individualistic in my characteristics
And I'm so futuristic I make a six month plan and in three weeks it's already realistic
You're materialistic you're getting it twisted
I like the finer things but I would rather be majestic
Look it up if you don't understand it
This is a freestyle even though the camera's candid
And it's that Bugzy Malone the wickedist ting since Sylvester Stallone made Rocky
And some say I'm cold others say I'm cocky
I can't stand girls that get about cock blocking I hate guys that are like Batman's Robin
I'd rather do a backwards flip in to a coffin than be the guy that done well when he was younger then got to 35 and ended up with nothing
I'm on a roll they say that I'm too cold the way that I spit lyrics
The way that I switch flows fuck knows
If I am ever gonna make dough out of this town that feels like a bottomless hole it's a cold world and I'm not on about J Cole
I'm just tryna sell songs like Kanye's soul I had 8 guys 8 bikes and 8 phones and every single one of them was on a pay roll
It's the way that I work I'm an entrepreneurial motherfucker I could probably sell the water to cordial
This is my voice I didn't fuck with the audio this is my life I just hope you enjoy the show
I spit that real shit the gyaldem are feeling it mandem big it up my family believe in it
I don't give a fuck if any DJ's are playing it
As long as they know my name and everybody's saying it
I'll go down in history some say it's a mystery
Why I didn't sign I was just tryna keep my dignity
I pity the fool but I don't walk around like Mr T

If only you knew why I do what I do
You really wouldn't think it's cool
Some of the things that I been through
If only you knew why I do what I do
You really wouldn't think it's cool
Some of the things that I been through
Through