Forever Be Alive

(album: Swings - 2014)

If today be the day I go
Tell em that I did it big and didn't live life slow
Tell my bro stay strong
Tell my momma I love her
And I'll forever be alive in the summer

June 21st
That was a magical night
A hundred thousand people dancing all happy bout life
And when I stepped into that stadium
I was going crazy though
I was living fast
Pumping drugs into my cranium
Ex had me floating
And Molly had me rolling
And cocaine made me feel like I was in control of
My liquor man
So go and pour some more liquor man
Dripping my throat
I swear it's getting thicker and
Smokes getting thicker damn
Oh shit this my jam
Bass hitting so hard I swear that it can hit your band
Living for the principle
And I don't wanna stick to plans
I just wanna live a little
I just wanna lift my hands
Rolling I swear to god that I'm rolling
By three a.m. I ate the whole gram that I was holding
Fuck sleep my eyes got no signs of closing
Hollering at girls and no dimes are posing
We're here bro
Yeah we finally made it here bro
Living life like we some fucking super heroes
Call me batman yeah
I'm a bad man know that we did it right if this was the last stand

If today be the day I go
Tell em that I did it big and didn't live life slow
Tell my bro stay strong
Tell my momma I love her
And I'll forever be alive in the summer

June 22nd
That was a horrible day
I felt empty
There's really no more can I say
I got back in the morning at around 8 o'clock
All my friends were in the hotel
In a state of shock
With the curtains all closed
Lying on the ground
I went to say "wassup?"
And no one tried to make a sound
And that's when John said
"Ryan, this is hard to say but
Last night Anthony he passed away
While we was out partying
He was in the room
Because he had fell asleep from all the shit that he consumed"
That's when I fell backwards my mind in a puzzle
They said he died in his sleep
With no signs of a struggle huh
At least that's what the coroner said
But I took the same drugs yeah
There should be more of us dead
I should be right there with him
Cause I watched him sniff those lines
And I popped a pill with him
Like 20 different times
And I watched him drink a fifth in like
5 minutes flat
So if that's the shit that killed him
How can I live with that
I'm feeling low
So low
I don't think I'm coming back
Trying to keep my shit together
I don't think that I'm in tact
As I sit there tryna pack
To get outta this place
Still high cause I don't know the amount that I take
Walking through the airport with tears rolling down my face
Everybody's staring at me like I'm from outer space and
I swear that was the longest flight home
Questioning everything I've ever known
Thinking about the legacy I would have left
If my friends were flying home with one homie less
And it was me that was laying there lifeless
I swear to god its so crazy how this life is
But make it through the day
I might just
Cause I feel him with me here as I write this

So if today be the day that I go
Tell em that I did it big and didn't live life slow
Tell my bro stay strong
Tell my momma I love her
And I'll forever be alive in the summer
I said

If today be the day that I go
Tell em that I did it big and didn't live life slow
Tell my bro stay strong
Tell my momma I love her
And I'll forever be alive in the summer