I'M SORRY

(album: DANCING IN THE DARK - 2022)

Remember the first time that I saw you?
Staying at a hostel playing a contra show
You almost nearly left with my brother
Looking for Mary Jane but we joked that it wasn't so
Remember the first song that I sent you?
The day after we met for island fires and family
I hand-bound that book that I showed you
I'll send it if I find it
Please don't send it back to me

I'm sorry that I let you down
I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together
I'm sorry that I let you go
It feels like such a shame
After all that we weathered
I'm sorry that I let you down
But you said it yourself
We just don't kiss the same ways
I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm hoping time can heal
Everything that it hasn't changed

I started putting stuff into boxes
I stopped because in trying
It made me wanna throw up
I've realised in the ways that you left here
You planned on coming back
No matter what the cost was
I don't think in the end it made a difference
There's times I got distracted
Body over the soul
A woman makes a home and that's the difference
I'm crying on a couch feeling truly alone

I'm sorry that I let you down
I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together
I'm sorry that I let you go
It feels like such a shame
After all that we weathered
I'm sorry that I let you down
But you said it yourself
We just don't kiss the same ways
I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm hoping time can heal
Everything that it hasn't changed

I hope one day I'll see you
When the border wars are over
Can we get some form of closure?
How we've come undone
I'm guarded in what I say and I do
But there's no doubt I love or I'm missing you
We were best friends you know that it was true
Couldn't sleep at night
Knowing it wasn't right

I'm sorry that I let you down
I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together
I'm sorry that I let you go
It feels like such a shame
After all that we weathered
I'm sorry that I let you down
You said it yourself
We just don't kiss the same ways
And I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm hoping time can heal
Everything that it hasn't changed
I'm sorry that I let you down

I'm sorry that I let you
So so sorry I let you
I'm sorry that I let you down