Doesn't Matter

(album: Chris - 2018)

I'm lingering on when they kiss
Leaning towards this abyss
And of lately the only people I can stare
Are the unraveled ones with their hands laying bare
But their hands are numb and empty
Their dull silence soothes me
Loud whispers in my back as if I couldn't hear
Thought I left ghosts behind but they're just coming near

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god and if god does exist
If I believe in god and if god does exist

Rage as a fabric, through and through
Like that gaze used to do
Cause those suicidal thoughts that are still in my head
Gives her that awful side-smile when I lay in bed

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god and if god does exist
If I believe in god and if god does exist

She's barely feeding, but she'll deny
Ribbon-legged, she passes by
Until she surrenders in the midst of the street
And the guys simply stare but continue to eat

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god and if god does exist
If I believe in god and if god does exist
It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god and if god does exist
If I believe in god and if god does exist

And if I'm cast out cause I wanted some more
And if some other guy dances too close to the shore
And if I could just push this door chalked on the wall
And if after the void there's somewhere else to fall

Forget I said it
I soliloquize
It's singling nettle
Their hands on their thighs

Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah
Don't ever tell them, I've got your back, yeah yeah
Choking to tears with shards of sunlight, yeah yeah
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah
...

(Save all you can
You won't be found
And never come back)

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god and if god does exist
If I believe in god and if god does exist
It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god and if god does exist
If I believe in god and if god does exist