Jason

(album: Painwave - 2019)

Never sat next to you
Were your eyes green or blue
Saw your face every day
We were no more than strangers it's true

And all my memories of you
From that joke of a school
Were of everyone giving you shit whilst you stare at your shoes

When you're a kid you don't know what it is
To recognise when someone's alone
I stood for nothing and that's what I did
I laughed at the sound of your heart breaking
Jason, Jason

Did the words they said stay on your mind
Did they seep through the school walls and into your life
I was a coward I laughed as I turned a blind eye

How can it be you were older than me
When I'm 32, and somehow I'm older than you
Jason

When you're a kid you don't know what it is
To recognise when someone's alone
I stood for nothing and that's what I did
I laughed at the sound of your heart breaking
Jason, Jason

(Jason, Jason)

I'm sorry I was gutless
I'm sorry I joined in
I'm sorry I knew exactly what was happening
I'm sorry you were shaking
I'm sorry you were afraid
I'm sorry now for all the things I'll never get to say
I'm sorry I was spineless
I know I let you down
I'm sorry I'm still here whilst you're lying in the ground
And at the gates of heaven
When my time is up
I'll tell God I'm sorry for Jason