Footsteps

(album: When The Sky Turns Red - 2020)

[Atlus:]
I hear your footsteps
I hear your footsteps down the hall

[Crypt:]
Staring at this mirror and I'm questioning myself
Am I worth it? Am I worthless? I can no longer tell
Been surrounded by these demons, I've seen the climate of hell
At the moments I'm at the lowest and I needed most help
But I'm scared of reaching out to people
So many of them said they would be there for me if I need 'em
But when I happen to need 'em, they happen to laugh at these evils
'Cause there's nothing to be sad about, and that is lethal
I wish I could change the way my brain views the world
I wish that I could take pain away from all these girls
That ever broke my heart, be here regardless, I deserved it
If they didn't leave for no reason, I know I earned it
On the surface, I always act like I'm the victim
Refusing that I have some flaws and awful symptoms
I never showed enough love to my first love
We'd argue all the time about it, and that would make it rough
So when somebody came along to show her [?] she often jumped in
I'd complain all over myself, and that's a kick to the gut
And that's a tough pill to swallow, but even then I know
That I should've been better, but now I drown in sorrows
'Cause I knew the whole time how to make it work
But I had people in my ear telling me no more worth
So I let it slip by, thinking I was better
But little did I know that I'd be giving up forever
And now she's happy as can be, while I'm sad on this beat
Rapping bout the things that happened, looking back on memories
I always think of her, but she never thinks of me
And that's the way that it goes down the road, rinse and repeat
And to my last one, I'm sorry, I know you'd hear this
I was obsessed over the sex and your appearance
So when you told me you love me, there was interference
'Cause my heart still had a part of it there and it wasn't sharing
But little by little, you start to push her out the way
Making room for yourself, because you were there to stay
And I latched on tight, 'cause I didn't want you to go
But I suffocated you like I was squeezing your throat
And now I know that I'm the one to blame for my past
I made a couple songs about it, treating them like they were trash
But in fact, I'm the reason that it failed
I'm the one that made it worse, and went and tipped the scales
I'm the one that made the seperation and blamed it you
'Cause if the tables were turned, I probably would leave you too
I'm hard-headed, I always want to be the one that's right
Even if that mean you going to sleep mad every night
Now I lay in bed at night, and look to my left
Knowing that you left, I'm left with nothing but regret
And it kills me knowing I could've stopped it
And to be honest, I know you left me because I left you with no options

[Atlus:]
I feel you inside my walls
I hear your footsteps down the hall
Know what you're headed for
Get up and lock my door
Hope it can buy me time, 'cause I need a little more
You're now inside of my room
You haven't found me here, but soon
I'm underneath my bed, trying to hold my breath
No, I can't make a sound, I know you paint houses red

[Joey Nato:]
And I never understood why
Why you're walking out the door, you're missing out on a good guy
You won't ever find another one like me
'Cause the gold in my craft, yo I might be
Then you shook your head and said that I was cocky
Then I told you, nah you don't get it
And you said that you don't get it, you're pathetic
You're so stuck up in your rap and you forgot about the present
And after that yo, you never came back
I was so stubborn that I couldn't learn a lesson
I thought you could come around or whatever I want
I gave you all the signs to walk like a pedestrian
I feel like I lost you
You feel like I crossed you
You can't buy love but, it'll still cost you
Looking back now, I can't even be mad, that I heard another dude on the night that I called you
'Cause I finally woke up and realized that I'm the issue
I guess I had to be alone
And I swear sometimes I hear footsteps coming down the hall when I'm home
I remember every message that I sent you on your birthday, saying let me get back with you
And you sent me laugh emojis and it shattered my heart
But nowadays, it's funny that I laugh with you, damn

[Atlus:]
I feel you inside my walls
I hear your footsteps down the hall
Know what you're headed for
Get up and lock my door
Hope it can buy me time, 'cause I need a little more
You're now inside of my room
You haven't found me here, but soon
I'm underneath my bed, trying to hold my breath
No, I can't make a sound, I know you paint houses red

I feel you inside my walls
I hear your footsteps down the hall
Know what you're headed for
Guess I never locked my door
I think I'll let you in, 'cause I need a little more