Traitor

(album: For The Life Of Me - 2012)

As I sit behind this screen
Typing words the way they seem
They come spinning out my soul
Leave me bare and so exposed
And as I sort through all this mess
That's always jumbled in my head
I am ashamed of who I am
A wayward son, a wayward man

And I find
That my heart is a traitor inside
Can you come and vindicate it?

I wanna, wanna love you
But I don't understand
Why my heart is a traitor
I love what I can't stand
I wanna, wanna follow
All that you've ever said
But my heart is a traitor
I wanna be free of this
Can you break me free of this?

As I wait for the sunrise
I see a new and shining sky
And a night that's gone away
I see so clearly my mistakes
And as you reach deep in me
To show me what I wouldn't see
And I am humbled by your touch
How could I ever be enough?

When I find
That my heart is a traitor inside
Won't you come and vindicate it?

I wanna, wanna love you
But I don't understand
Why my heart is a traitor
I love what I can't stand
I wanna, wanna follow
All that you've ever said
But my heart is a traitor
I wanna be free of this
Can you break me free of this?

As these words come pouring out
I finally know what they're about
About the God who conquers all
Who helps me stand when I can't crawl
And when I'm down on my face
Because I've chosen my own way
And even though I've done Him wrong
He is there with open arms

When I find
That my heart is a traitor inside
Then He comes and vindicates it

I wanna, wanna love you
But I don't understand
Why my heart is a traitor
I love what I can't stand
I wanna, wanna follow
All that you've ever said
But my heart is a traitor
I wanna be free of this
Can you break me free of this?
I wanna be free of this
Can you break me free of this?