Catch The Rain

(album: What Is Life? - 2023)

Everyday I pray that all this pain will go away
I hold my faith trust that God will lead the way
I know I'll make it though the storm and through the rain
And I won't break until I see a brighter day

The pain never goes away
I suppress these feelings in my chest
Then they move up to my neck and decapitate
I'm obsessed with time
I know I can't get it back so when I catch my head
It's only half the wait
I smile on Saturdays
The weekends when I shrink and deactivate
And then Monday comes around and I relive the same
The cycle is a storm I chase
But I can't seem to catch the rain

It's war when I'm in the booth
Just me inside a room and this liquor always tells the truth
Got my phone inside my hand but I turn of my notifications 'cause the side of one can fuck around and chase my mood
I hit "Record", my life's melodic pain they never heard before
They get addicted to that sound and then I make 'em more
And now I understand why they say, "When it rains it pours"
Don't wanna live my life inside this cage
I'm stuck in a ritual grave
As history repeats itself, I seclude myself in astro space
I think I plan it in the storm, but I can't catch the rain
Cover up a master pain, I think I got a

The pain never goes away (The pain never goes away)
I suppress these feelings in my chest
Then they move up to my neck and decapitate
I'm obsessed with time
I know I can't get it back so when I catch my head
It's only half the wait
I smile on Saturdays (Saturdays)
The weekends when I shrink and deactivate
And then Monday comes around and I relive the same
The cycle is a storm I chase
But I can't seem to catch the rain

'Cause I'm having trouble getting used to me
'Cause I remember how it used to be
I meet new people everyday and you see usually
I know if they like me or they motherfucking using me
And that's why I'm just closed off an antisocial
In and out of conversations I'm compensating my music is my excuse to say I'm vocal
My greatest hits are my worst times compiled
I bottled up and shared to the world and that's what made 'em global
And that's the fucked up part, popping prescriptions
While giving vivid descriptions
To people who clap and listen while you stuck inside a prison
Slave to the algorithm, cope with the mechanism, sip liquor and chase women

But that's what they want
Then you wake up and it's all over
Life is nothing but a vapor, once you blink, you're older
Your heart gets colder
They meddling your mind, the systems you gave your whole lifetime implodes
This dust'll corrode you, you're looking over your shoulder
Thinking how you supposed to get through this life while being sober
You lose composer
Get to drinking for the closure
Then you right back in the cycle where those motherfuckers want ya, say

The pain never goes away (The pain never goes away)
I suppress these feelings in my chest
Then they move up to my neck and decapitate
I'm obsessed with time
I know I can't get it back so when it catch my head
It's only half the wait
I smile on Saturdays (Saturdays)
The weekends when I shrink and deactivate
And then Monday comes around and I relive the same
The cycle is a storm I chase
But I can't seem to catch the rain

Everyday I pray that all this pain will go away
I hold my faith trust that God will lead the way
I know I'll make it though the storm and through the rain
And I won't break until I see a brighter day