Not Done Killing Me

(album: Slow Down - 2021)

I said I would forget this
But everywhere I look, I get a reminder
Don't know if you just want attention
But you're going round telling my friends
That somehow it's my fault

I'm wide awake tonight
I'm just hurt if I'm honest
I'm reaching for the fire
And it'll kill me but I still want it

'Cause you're not done
No, you're not done killing me yet
You made a home inside of my head
Is that what you want?
'Cause you're not done
No, you're not done killing me yet
And I still can't put it to bed
Is that what you wanted?

I flew across the country
If I couldn't move on in my head
I could in my body
But it's still so dark here
Did you follow me on purpose
Killing me softly?

It's a lonely kinda night
I wanna make room for one more heartbeat
I'm reaching for the fire
But God is keeping something from me

'Cause you're not done
No, you're not done killing me yet
You made a home inside of my head
Is that what you want?
'Cause you're not done
No, you're not done killing me yet
And I still can't put it to bed
Is that what you wanted?

What's good for me
I should want what's good for me
But I want what kills me
But I want what kills me
But then a voice inside of me
Tempts me with a shiny thing
I hope it might fulfill me
But I know it just kills me

And I should want what's good for me
I should want what's good for me
But I want what kills me
But I want what kills me, yeah

'Cause you're not done
No, you're not done killing me yet
You made a home inside of my head
Is that what you want?
'Cause you're not done
No, you're not done killing me yet
And I still can't put it to bed
Is that what you wanted?