los angeles

(album: when the sky gets dark - 2023)

You're out in Los Angeles
I'm still stuck at home
You're out drinkin jack
And I'm betting you'll take him home

You're out making memories
Some of them you'll regret
But nothing can match the feeling of
Spending time with your friends

You're out there for your dreams
You don't care what people think
But you're cutting me so deep to the bone

You're out there sharing laughs
I'm having panic attacks
And hoping I'll get you back but I won't

I lost my voice from all the screaming I'm so terrified
One day you'll leave me like my mother I'm so traumatized
These things I do remind me who I never wanna be
Sometimes its hard to believe, I see my mother in me

You didn't say anything
Now I'm overthinkin
I was bout to go to sleep
Instead I'm up an drinkin

Don't make me double up
I don't need another cup
I'd tell you how I've been
But I know you don't give a

Cause you don't ever text
You don't ever call
I spent way to many nights
Drinkin alcohol

I get way to in my head
But you know that
Smokin in your bed takes me
Way back

I don't wanna text
I don't wanna call
I sent one the other day
I got no response

I can't take another hit
I'll be so sad
I wish it was good but its
All bad

Don't tell me you love me if you prolly won't the next month
Don't act like you want me and then treat me like a no one
Make me think I'm lucky and then leave me in the dust huh
Make me fall for you then act like you don't give a fuck

You're out in Los Angeles
I'm still stuck at home
You're out drinkin jack
And I'm betting you'll take him home

You're out making memories
Some of them you'll regret
But nothing can match the feeling of
Spending time with your friends

You're out there for your dreams
You don't care what people think
But you're cutting me so deep to the bone

You're out there sharing laughs
I'm having panic attacks
And hoping I'll get you back but I won't