Hypocrite

(album: Shadows And Shinings - 2021)

Ain't feeling really good about life today
Had a couple of Dexamphetamines
Coupled with drinking my life away
I can be my own worst enemy
They say maybe see a psych a day
Or maybe you can just keep cycling
Around your problems, sitting on your fixed gear
See how quickly you fix them
This just in, you ain't perfect
Different words, same person, Nick Murphy
I meditate but then I will drink booze
And send out mixed messages, Rick Rubin, hey
You and your friends
Looking in just thinking it's The Truman Show
Should be flying Con Air
Feeling like I'm better off dead and only John Cusack knows
I know I
I know that I could be a better man, I

Say I'm woke but sleep in late
I want you close but need my space
A roller coaster, no one's safe, it's true
I'm a hypocrite, I know

I'm just an average man, basket case like Yogi Bear
You won't find your answers and you won't find your Yogi here
Lie and cheat, I pray on God, feel you only holding on
Yeah, well you ain't the only one
See I'm a hypocrite, I
Man, I'm a hypocrite, I know
I hurt the ones who mean the most to me (most to me)
Ha, ha, all those who close to me
Man, I'm a hypocrite, I

See, I cut off a man walking through the airport just before
I was late up in a rush to board
Frustrated he must have saw it, and thought
"Yo, he's just a boy", I'm just a boy
Blindfolded, deaf and dumb
'Cause when I look behind he had no arm
He had no leg, felt like The Walking Dead
Without a head, no heart, so I said
"Please forgive me, I need to slow down
Head in the clouds like nuclear fallout"
He said, "You're rushing to get below ground
A vicious cycle if you ain't conscious"
This I know, I know, it's the deadlines
Are they called deadlines 'cause they kill you?
He said, "You're compelled to keep ahead of time
But when you stop, yeah that is the real you, mate"
Okay I know I can be better, man, I

Say I'm woke but sleep in late
I want you close but need my space
A roller coaster, no one's safe, it's true
I'm a hypocrite, I
Say I'm woke but sleep in late
I want you close but need my space
A roller coaster, no one's safe, it's true
I'm a hypocrite, I know

I'm just an average man, basket case like Yogi Bear
You won't find your answers and you won't find your Yogi here
Lie and cheat, I pray on God, feel you only holding on
Yeah, well you ain't the only one
See I'm a hypocrite, I
Man, I'm a hypocrite, I know
Man, I'm a hypocrite, I
Yeah, I'm a hypocrite, I know
Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb
Hypocrite, I