My Private Hell

(album: In The Beginning There Was... - 2000)

How many times will you run me over
Before I won't get up again?
I'm not some life-sized blow up toy
But the tired girl with whom you began

I don't believe in anything
Can't put my faith in little things
You are the only thing that ever made sense
I thought I'd always be next to you
Now all I'm finding is solitude
Let go, but the light out, up goes the fence

'Cause everyone loses their mind here
And no one's got anything to tell
Did you ever think the we couldn't cut it?
The doors are wide open
Welcome to my private Hell

How many times can I be offended
Before I'm done counting to ten?
I can't find a reason for why I've stayed
It's just nothing I ever planned

Don't come to me with your fuck upsets
I don't really care about your papercuts
When you slash at me in every which way
You say I'm lacking poignancy
Well, you need diplomacy
Let's throw in the towel and call it a day

'Cause everyone loses their mind here
And no one's got anything to tell
Did you ever think the we couldn't cut it?
The doors are wide open
Welcome to my private Hell

Whatever happened to me
Whatever happened to you
No one's confessing
It's all second-guessing
I'm scared as Hell everyhting's through
When somewhere I still love you

'Cause everyone lost their mind here
And no one's got anything to tell
Did you ever think the we couldn't cut it?
The doors are wide open
Welcome to my private Hell

My private hell
My private hell
Hell...