Forgive Me

(album: Broken - 2021)

[FJ Outlaw:]
Yeah, yeah

Sorrow's all I really ever feel
Ask the Lord if he can take the wheel
As I'm sweating terribly, gripping steel
'Cause I never knew depression felt so real
I'm popping pills so I can feel okay
Vomiting most of my day away
Haunted by the things my father'd say
As my mama prays I'd see another day
I been haunted by my demons, they try to take my soul
I been smoking, I been drinking myself into a hole
I been questioning and thinking if I stay on this road
Will I float or am I sinking? 'Cause I swear that I don't know
Have you ever seen a demon right above you as you sleep?
As you violently wake up and it looks into you so deep?
As you're crying and you're shaking, as you hide beneath your sheets
'Cause I see that demon nightly, he's inside me screaming

Father, please forgive me for going down this road
It's honestly so hard for me, it's all I've ever known
It's hard to be the prodigy of those that came before
Especially when I lay me down to sleep, I'm all alone
I'm praying Father, please forgive me for going down this road
It's honestly so hard for me, it's all I've ever known
It's hard to be the prodigy of those that came before
Especially when I lay me down to sleep, I'm all alone

[Jelly Roll:]
Father, forgive me
Tried loving myself, but the problems within me
I harbor the sorrow, so why even bother to borrow
A second of peace from my demons?
I am the reason
Nobody forced me to travel this road that I'm on
And nobody told me that when I arrive from my drive, everyone would be gone
I picked up the pieces that shattered
As if that even mattered
There's parts of me that have scattered
So beaten and battered, mistreated and badgered
I'd rather be judged by twelve than carried by six
Through this prayer, I repent
Love is a vindictive fairytale myth
I epitomize what disparaging is
I've been traveling on this road for so long
That there's no telling where I would be
And I've been listening to the same old song
Every night when I hit my knees, I pray

[FJ Outlaw:]
Father, please forgive me for going down this road
It's honestly so hard for me, it's all I've ever known
It's hard to be the prodigy of those that came before
Especially when I lay me down to sleep, I'm all alone
I'm praying Father, please forgive me for going down this road
It's honestly so hard for me, it's all I've ever known
It's hard to be the prodigy of those that came before
Especially when I lay me down to sleep, I'm all alone