Angel 3

(album: 20Flaw7 - 2018)

My name is Angel, at least that is what they call me, yeah
You mighta heard of what happened but don't be worried
I went thru hell and the fire gave me the fury
Besides we know that there's three sides to every story
I was born in New York, with no father to call
My mother stayed in her room getting high till it's gone
And she would hit up her friend
And he would bring her some more
Then wait till she fell asleep so I could pay for it all
My older brother just left, he didn't care for my mom
I haven't seen him in years, he don't know what's going on
I had to fight through the tears and face the eye of the storm
With no one holding my hand except the man in my arms
I couldn't take the abuse. Left without any proof
I bottled up all my pain. I buried all of my truths
I was too young for the streets but never made an excuse
No way that I would of knew the type of trouble I brew
Cuz then, I met Jen. She had just dropped out of school
Sixteen and kinda cool wasn't living by any rules
Show me how to get this money and food, from one or two quick rides
We would take with a dude, it wasn't new
Had me sleeping with the shakes and Jen would always say that
The blow would ease the pain and make the nightmares go away
Now everyday I was addicted. Always looking to get it
I told her to show me who's selling. She introduced me to Derrick

Kept spending every penny on blow, we're bout to starve
Jen told me to start talking to Derrick about a job
She said he'll give us plenty for free and he'll be paying us
He's got the money so you know he can take care of us
We started off and everything seemed fine
Had all the drugs that we needed. That's all I want at the time
He kinda felt like a father. I always wished he was mine
Until one night he raped me where the sun never shines
I wanted out of this life. Couldn't go back where I was
I had to handle this right. Someone like me never does
He took away our control and had us biting our tongues
I just wanted it to be love not to be scared of a thug
I gave him two thousand dollars that he was saying I owed
But he was drunk when he stashed it so I know just where to go
I started moving the money but I was taking it slow
I did it eight weeks straight, started to feel like a pro
But I ran into a glitch. That's when everything switched
Cuz Jen saw what I was doing and she turned to a snitch
She told Derrick I was stealing and she had him convinced
I played stupid for a sec like I ain't know he was rich
He took a grip of my hair. Dragged me down the stairs
Put a bag on my head. I couldn't see anywhere
Gets taken off by a man while I was tied to a chair
He had an apron of blood. Wish I could I show you the fear
I started pleading my case, He could tell I was scared
Could see the look on his face. But I don't think that he cared
I even offered him double. I start to feel the despair
Two days sex slave but it felt like a year
I was just hoping for rest. I didn't have any strength
Feel like I wanted to die. I was withdrawn to death
Asked if I had any words before I lost all my breathe
I said I should of took the whole two million and left

Bag went over my head, hidden like it's the end
I didn't know if he believed me or was gonna leave me for dead
I asked him if he wanted the money
That's when he said, if you lying you gonna meet two dogs I haven't fed
No more hoping and wishing, had to make a decision
He's taking me to the house
I know from every direction
There's a few guns in the drawer
If I make it to the kitchen, I might just give me a chance
If not I'll really be missing
We're slowing down and the fear starts to kick up a gear
I'm hoping Derrick ain't here. Just so he don't interfere
He took the bag off my head and whispered into my ear
He's in the house so you better hope the money is there
Went to the door in the back. It was already cracked
But Derrick never leaves it open, now I think it's a trap
I use the dude as a shield. I'm staying close to his back
If I get seen in this house, I know I'm getting attacked
Start creeping in very slow, shaking out of my soul
Feel like I'm too young to go, I'm only 15 years old
See Derrick right by the steps
All we could see are his toes
I started feeling confused on how a person could float
But he was hung from the rail, chord tied to this throat
With someone right at the desk, here writing a note
He looked me right in my eyes. It's like we both seen a ghost
It was my brother Derrick Jr and my body just froze
That's when I started to cry, tried to run to his side
The killer grabbed at my arm, gave him a knee to the side
He lost his grip with the gun, my mind is thinking survive
My brother picked up the handle and hit him plenty of times
I was so thankful for Ghost, held him tightly and close
He started telling me most bout the man on the rope
How they all thought I was dead
But he just needed to know
That he could find the one that did it and leave them with no soul
We said we should disappear, get the hell out of here
Were gonna die if we stay, the coast will never be clear
I told him everything's fine, you just wait for me here
Went upstairs to the stash, the two million was there