rot

(album: Halloween, but All Year - 2019)

I hate being lonely
Yet I'm always separating myself
They don't wanna get to know me
Or at least that's just what I tell myself
Walk around like they all owe me
But really I'm just feeling bad for myself
'Til I feel like I'm imploding
Let it out with a text, what the hell
Was I thinking?
Why'd I have to go and say those things?
Baby, what the hell was I Thinking?
Why'd I say I love you back
Why'd I say I love you back?

Tricking myself so that I never notice
I'm losing my focus, I know that I'm hopeless
I'm just waiting for a miracle
Something that'll tell me where I need to go
Where would they want me?
In the past they all would want, but never want me again
Oh well, So Long, I don't want 'em
Don't want 'em
If you don't want me then I don't want ya
When I wanna pretend, I'll just tell you that I'm fine
While I'm crying, But you'll know
That I'm out of my mind
Hold my hand, hold my hand
I need help right now
I could cry right now, but
I'd die right now in your arms