Throw Myself Away

(album: Ex Talk - 2021)

My mind goes so fast, I'm just tryna slow it down
I know I give the impression that I'm independent, but I need a body right now
Giddy up
Give me a crush
But it's never enough
I need the crush

You see, I give validation as soon as I get naked
I know I should treat me sacred, but secretly I'm praying
That we'll make it into daylight
But they only love me when it's nighttime

I throw myself into other boys' arms
Just to get over the other one
I throw myself away and break my heart
To get over the love that died
I don't know why I try, I try
I don't know why I try

When true love don't last, I get drunk and I run around town
I squeeze myself into dresses, get real obsessive, I'm not his possession, I'm out
Giddy up
Tell me I'm lush
Make a real big fuss
Pretend that it's love

You see, I get so frustrated and I text him, and I hate it
I should lower my expectations, but secretly I'm praying
That he'll come on over tonight
Say he's sorry and that everything's alright

I throw myself into other boys' arms
Just to get over the other one
I throw myself away and break my heart
To get over the love that died
I don't know why I try, I tried
I don't know why I try
I don't know why I try, I tried
I don't know why I try

I don't know why I try, I tried
I don't know why, I

Give me some love, give me some love
Give me some love tonight
Give me some love, give me some love
Give me some love tonight

I throw myself into other boys' arms
Just to get over the other one
I throw myself away and break my heart
To get over the love that died
I don't know why I try, I tried
I don't know why I try
I don't know why I try, I tried
I don't know why I try
I tried
I don't know why I try, I tried
I tried, I tried