A Story

(album: Equivalency II: Everything We Left Out - 2019)

Standing on the street on a cold morning
Its generic but its where you found glory
Waiting for a cab or you could walk
Cause its cold and the sunrise wont stop
You think looks are a deteriorating commodity
And I'm afraid to look at myself
Cause it seems self hatred can be narcissism
If you're still thinking about yourself
I'm good at the qualitative not the quantitative
So I'm forced to change with each doubt
And its not losing freedom
Its losing convenience
And I've conveniently counted you out
Its clear that sometimes people don't choose evil
They mistake power for freedom
Your having a party with nothing to celebrate
Because you don't even believe in kingdoms
Bodega castles and kings storming city streets
Suffering long enough to want others to suffer too
Jumped the fence behind the cafe on fourth avenue
To realise that this evil isn't you
Cause people who suffer want other people to suffer
And I only people to work within parameters I can thrive in
A wolf in sheep's skin
Its not a mindset that you can stay alive in

If all you do is react to an enemy
And do what you think they will hate
You're letting them define you
Because your soul still cannot break away
And you remember telling your mother
"If you don't like the road I'm going down you don't have to follow me"
She said "to be unique or to be one of a kind,
Does not mean you have to be alone in your feelings"
Cause real confidence is the willingness to be vulnerable in front of others
You provoke me and then when I react you play the victim
And then you hide under the covers
She said "Mom will always love you but right now I just don't like you"
She replied "to knock on the door at any hour because at this house
We will always welcome you"

They say if you're good at something
You don't seem to care about what you're bad at
And the hardest losses in life are the ones that you cant take back
We can be robbers of each others time
And drill our own consciousness
They say freedom isn't free but liberty can be
If you choose to believe it
We get stuck in this mindset where we say
"We love you so join us or we'll kill you
It's the safest bet you're safe here
As long as we lose your identity"
Is another lie that were fed but honestly
If there's a place where you can be you to the purest form
And love yourself as well as everyone around you
I hope you find it
Cause you deserve peace