Jealous

Trying just to rise above,
But it's inevitably sinking low.
And I'm trying to take the higher road,
But the more I lift me up, the deeper down I go

And who do I think I'm kidding?
This graciousness ain't exactly fitting.
And I must admit:
I know it don't look pretty.

But I'm jealous of the air that fills you,
The cigarette that slowly kills you,
The novelty of other women...
All their kisses That's a given!
I'm jealous of your saddest day,
The tear that lingers on your face...
Well, I'm jealous.

Strangers that you'll never know...
Well, even they they get to
Watch you come and go
While I sit here like a girl inside a bubble:
Removed from all your victories,
Untouched by all your troubles.

And who do I think I'm kidding?
You won't be running back
Into this life I'm living.
And I'm slightly pissed that I'd even give a shit.

But I'm jealous of the air that fills you,
The cigarette that slowly kills you,
The novelty of other women...
All their kisses That's a given!
I'm jealous of your saddest day,
The tear that lingers on your face...
Well, I'm jealous.

Oh damn, I I love you...
More than I ever wanted to.
And now all that's left are these deep regrets,
And this all-comsuming emptiness...

And I'm jealous of the words you fumble
From your silky lips they stumble..
Jealous of the nights in winter,
And the covers that you cling to.
I'm jealous of your guilty conscience:
It's always right there with you
Waiting, watching...

I'm jealous of the air that fills you,
The cigarette that slowly kills you,
The novelty of other women...
All their kisses That's a given!
I'm jealous of your saddest day,
The tear that lingers on your face...

Oh, I'm jealous of the air that fills you,
The cigarette that slowly kills you,
The novelty of other women...
All their kisses That's a given!
I'm jealous of your saddest day,
The tear that lingers on your face...

Well, I'm jealous.
Oh, I'm...