Father, You're Not A Father

(album: Close To A World Below - 2000)

Bless me, father
For you've sinned against me
It's been one week
Since you've raped me

Holy Father, your spirit inside me
Holy Father, you robbed my virtue
Holy Mary, mother of Christ
The fruit of thy womb has poisoned me

Father, you're not a father
Rapist, selfish taker of youth
The fires you cast out
I promise you for eternity

Our father, who aren't in heaven
Inside of me, my soul is lost
My manhood, so minuscule, was stolen
The Rosary has gripped tight around my neck

I hail: "Mary"
Over and over again
You've failed Mary
You've raped Mary
Over and over again

You've walked beside me, but I was alone
You've walked on top of me, crushing me
My innocence and my emotion
Were wiped away and you didn't care

You just hid
Behind your collar
The hardest times
I was helpless
And it was too late
Much too late

Touch me, I'm warm
But not alive
Feel my hot breath
But I'm not living
Dead inside
Alone forever
Father, why?
Father, why?

Father, you're not a father
Rapist, selfish taker of youth
The fires you cast out
I promise you for eternity