I Try

(album: Frames - 2021)

Sometimes, I'm scared of being honest
I say, I'm fine
And that's the way I get in trouble
I try
But I try
Oh, I try
And make sure everything is always alright
And that's the way I get in trouble
Last night, for once I think I thought about me
I thought about me
Oh

Maybe I'm selfish with things that I want
Maybe I'm tired of no answers from God
Maybe I think that I'm telling the truth
But the truth is I'm selling the lies that I bought
Looking for answers, I know that's in front of me
Getting excuses before an apology
Negligence is made from living so comfortably
Something's gotta change, or honesty's costing me
How much can I give? How much can I try?
How much can I hurt? How much can I lie?
How much did I live while I'm still alive?
How much did I feel before I said I'm fine?
Lots of excuses, control my perception, I know that's so useless
What am I pursuing?
Am I happy or not, like what am I doing? I

Lie to myself, yeah
I lie to myself just so I can save feelings of everyone else
Not be a burden, just one that can help
As long as you're fine, who cares how I felt?
And that's what's been eating me
Working on freeing me
Walking contradiction, what I've been seen to be
Healing everyone is what has been killing me
Time that I tell you that

Sometimes, I'm scared of being honest
I say, I'm fine
And that's the way I get in trouble
I try
But I try
Oh, I try
And make sure everything is always alright
And that's the way I get in trouble
Last night, for once I think I thought about me
I thought about me
Oh

Honestly scared to be honest, I've done many things I'm not proud of
I run from the crowd that just cares who's the hottest on Billboard
Don't let me get caught up in places I don't want a part of, I
Struggle to balance my life with impression
All of the money and tension
Vampires every direction
Don't be surprised, how many count all your blessings?
My therapist told me that
I shouldn't be living as everyone's hero
My therapist told me that
It's okay to say no, even though I can't bear to
I know where my weakness at
If I focused on me, it could all be so simple
These thoughts in my head, if they just could be gentle
If showing my feelings could just be less stressful, 'cause

Sometimes, I'm scared of being honest
I say, I'm fine
And that's the way I get in trouble
I try
But I try
Oh