Church Girl

(album: RAPHA - 2022)

Light streams through stained glass windows
Just look, won't let you in though
So beautiful but stoic
Do they know that I'm hurting?

Kneel silently at the front
Damage is already done
Feels like this story's wasted
What's next when you leave nothing to taste it?

Perfectionism's a bitch
Obey it and you'll get this
Silent cries echo through cathedrals
Resounding to the top of the steeples

Oh, would love meet me here
Or would it be scared, or would it draw near?
And oh, I used to call this my home
Now I just feel alone, now I just feel alone

If it hadn't happened I'd still be a church girl
I'd still be a church girl
I wouldn't be in my head, crying with my eyes red
Wouldn't hit these dead ends

Didn't used to be this way
Something inside me just changed
Now I don't know what to say
Whenever it's time to pray
Who is on the other end?
I know he sees what I did
Silence is all that I hear
While others say it so clear

Perfectionism's a bitch
Obey it and you'll get this
Silent cries echo through cathedrals
Resounding to the top of the steeples

Oh, would love meet me here
Or would it be scared, or would it draw near?
And oh, I used to call this my home
Now I just feel alone, now I just feel alone

If it hadn't happened I'd still be a church girl
I'd still be a church girl
I wouldn't be in my head, crying with my eyes red
Wouldn't hit these dead ends