Breathing For The First Time

(album: RAPHA - 2022)

There was a boy living right next door
We were just friends 'till we wanted more
Now I'm sneaking in late, silently close the gate
And his hair's jet black like the moonlight sky
And his nose is cold and I wonder why
I'm shaking in his arms, while I am aching in his arms

'Cause no one can hold the weight of a broken heart
And when he tries to counter lies, they won't leave me, it won't leave

Now I'm thinking that I should take a step away
Work through all this unattended pain
Inside of me, 'cause it guides me
'Cause if I like him that's a choice that I wanna make
Without the confusion in my brain
Emotions, from previous oceans

My heart breaks more in his arms
My heart breaks more in his arms

Soaring, breaking, bleeding, seeking
Breathing for the first time
Eyes on hating, chasing, saving
All my love for one more moment looking into your eyes

There's something like a vacuum
That was waiting for some time
But I just like my aching
You step in inside

That's what [?] pressure from the story you don't know
I never should have come here, I guess I'll just go

Is this what healing feels like?
Is this what it suppose to feel like?
When we open up just a little

I thought that I'd be happy
I thought that I'd be fine
But all I feel is guilty
All I wanna do is cry

My heart breaks more in his arms
My heart breaks more in his arms
My heart breaks more in his arms
My heart breaks more in his arms

Soaring, breaking, bleeding, seeking
Breathing for the first time
Eyes on hating, chasing, saving
All my love for one more moment looking into your eyes

I'm giving you the worst of me
Trading for the best of you
Even though I'm hurting me
Do you want to see this through?

I'm giving you the worst of me
Trading for the best of you
Even though I'm hurting me
Do you want to see this through? (How dare you, how dare you)

I'm giving you the worst of me (I'm begging, I'm begging)
Trading for the best of you (Giving you the worst of me)
Even though I'm hurting me
Do you want to see this through? (Do you wanna stay with me?)

I'm giving you the worst of me
Trading for the best of you (How dare you, how dare you)
Even though I'm hurting me
Do you want to see this through?

Eyes on soaring, breaking, bleeding, seeking
Breathing for the first time
Eyes on hating, chasing, saving
All my love for one more moment looking into your eyes