Same Asshole

(album: Crosses And Crossroads - 2019)

Forgive me I've been drinking
Back-roading and thinking
Remember when the band played on while the ship sinking
No matter what I do there's no escaping my past
I do everything I can and it keeps chasing my ass
I know my karma is constant for all the hearts that I've broke
Knowing I'll never be forgiven that shit bothers my soul
When it's thrown up in my face man that shit fucks up my day
No matter what I do I feel I'm only judged by mistakes
Even if the good outweighs it by a million to one
They still gon' hate me for the single fucking thing that I done
Even if the good outweighs it by a million to one
They still gon' hate me for the single fucking thing that I done

I try not to think of hard times
I try hard to let the past go
I thank God that I'm a changed man
But some days I'm that same asshole
The same old me the same back road
A couple of crosses and a black rose
Singing the same old sad song

I must admit I'm infatuated with sad clowns
I guess they help me better understand my Dad now
Those that entertain at the expense of pain
Those that dance in the rain instead of just complain
My brother always said I was ahead of the game even before the fucking money hit the jealousy came
Put it all on the line there's no regrets in this shit
I admit besides the blessings there was lessons in it
They say life is a marathon tighten up cause you gotta run
I know that the dollar spends as fast as the dollar comes
Why these other rap dudes in the strip club with a lot of ones
I'm just trying to buy a crib and start my kids a college fund for-real

I try not to think of hard times
I try hard to let the past go
I thank God that I'm a changed man
But some days I'm that same asshole
The same old me the same back road
A couple of crosses and a black rose
Singing the same old sad songs

Can I be real for a minute
Release this passion within
My fat ass gettin bigger
I need to get back to the gym
I'm lookin at myself like how the fuck this happened again
Baby mama got out of jail and she done relapsed again
I swear I'm tellin y'all the truth
There's so much shit in the air
My father got leukemia
He just left critical care
Not to mention mama's got dementia
Man she's always feelin sick
I try to help em pay the rent
But shes unhappy as it gets
I cannot complain because my daughter's doin great
Plus this music shit's a dream
What the fuck you think it ain't
But please make no mistake
Baby after the show
I'm all alone
On this road
Headin back to my home

I try not to think of hard times
And I try hard to let the past go
I thank God that I'm a changed man
But some days I'm that same asshole
The same old me the same back roads
A couple of crosses and a black rose
Singin the same old sad songs