Promise

(album: Self Medicated - 2020)

In a world that's full of hope, why am I alone
Had this feeling so long my serotonin's gone
Even when I get high why do I feel so low
Never good at goodbyes I hold on
I hate the man I see when I see myself
A reflection of hell (yeah)

I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe
I know that I won't change so I sold another dream
All the lies I told are burning holes inside
And I don't, I don't know why
I broke a promise to myself

As I stand here again all covered in mud
And I'm drenched in my sins what have I become
I said the last time that would be my last time
Not good at goodbyes I hold on
If I jumped off this ledge would you catch my fall
Would you care at all

I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe
I know that I won't change so I sold another dream
All the lies I told are burning holes inside
And I don't, I don't know why
I broke a promise to myself

All the stages I've shaken, all the roads that I've taken
Wondering if I can really make it
Feeling so depressed I've been humbled and humiliated
All the truth I've mistaken for the things I thought save me
It's like nobody knows at any given second I feel like I might explode

I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe
I know I'll never change, I sold another dream
All the lies I told are burning holes inside
And I don't, I don't know why
And I don't, I don't know why
I broke a promise to myself