This Fear

(album: November - 2017)

Pull me close, break my fall
Say you'll stay through it all
Tear me down every wall
Tell me what I can do
Let me crash into you
Oh this war
Yeah, I'll lose this fear of loving you

This bed don't feel the same, sleep, I've been losing it
Everyday I think about you, really that's the truest shit
I pushed you right out of my life, was on some stupid shit
Wishing you were mine cause now it kills me that you are his
Homies tell me get a grip, the right thing is what you just did
You about to be a superstar, did you forget that shit
Man this the come up, your moment, I mean like here it is
But it don't feel right, you're not here for me to share it with
You were my day one, you always stayed down
I'm going psycho like bates motel where I stay now
I told you everything, nothing's what we say now
Ironic how this break up has led me to a break down
And I'm the one to blame, you ain't done nothing wrong
Never thought I'd see the day, that the one I love is gone
I'm not in my right mind, right girl, not the right time
Maybe we can be together in a different lifetime

Pull me close, break my fall
Say you'll stay through it all
Tear me down every wall
Tell me what I can do
Let me crash into you
Oh this war
Yeah, I'll lose this fear of loving you

I swear I fall in love, with every gorgeous face
That's the reason that my heart is in a broken state
I made mistakes, those decisions wish I could erase
Look what I've done, fucked around and put us in a grave
I see you moving on, I see you doing better
Thank you for the memories, it really was a pleasure
On some Bruno Mars shit, you really were my treasure
But it's whatever cause I know you really gone forever
All the voices in my head been screaming lately
I'm like gatsby, you like daisy, wish this was a movie maybe
Wish that I could go back in time, make a couple changes
But I can't, so now we went from best of friends to fucking strangers
Was afraid of loving you, I was a victim to temptations
Yeah, I fucked around and destroyed what we had created
Yeah, now I regret all the games that I was playing
Yeah, I hope he's everything that I'm not, I'm just saying

Pull me close, break my fall
Say you'll stay through it all
Tear me down every wall
Tell me what I can do
Let me crash into you
Oh this war
Yeah, I'll lose this fear of loving you