Close My Eyes

(album: Darkest Hour - 2019)

I close my eyes and I'm drowning in the darkness, feeling like a carcass oh my God
Lately I've been feeling like the world's coming down on me, are you proud of me, my darling
Close my eyes and I can see you smiling, tell me does that smile bring you pain, bring you hardship
Looking at my life, trying to find where I lost it, find out where my heart is, oh my God

This might be the realist shit I've ever written
I don't got no time for no fake shit, that shits forbidden
Always been the underdog, the person that's always hidden
Always had a voice, but it took awhile for them to listen
I'm on my own, I do it all, I'm independent
Never in my life will I let another man write my sentence
Every word is mine, every verse divine, but that's expected
Bags under my eyes, when's the last time I got some rest in
I don't know, I can't afford to waste a minute
On the come up, its wild, snakes be trying to steal positions
All the people that you thought were homies, lie like politicians
If the business looking shady, I'll disappear like magicians
I'm through with being humble, I'm done with being friendly
My kindness ain't a weakness, don't suspect that I'm not deadly
I got goals on top of goals I must achieve you can't prevent me
They ask me why I rap, cause without rap, I would be empty

I close my eyes and I'm drowning in the darkness, feeling like a carcass oh my God
Lately I've been feeling like the world's coming down on me, are you proud of me, my darling
Close my eyes and I can see you smiling, tell me does that smile bring you pain, bring you hardship
Looking at my life, trying to find where I lost it, find out where my heart is, oh my God

I'm under pressure like Logic was, but shit is different
My mind is missing, its stuck in prison, ima tryna get it
I realized through making music, I make a difference
The clock is ticking, so everything that I got I'm giving
I'm under pressure like Logic was, but shit is different
My mind is missing, its stuck in prison, ima tryna get it
I realized through making music, I make a difference
The clock is ticking, so everything that I got I'm giving
Yeah, this might be the realist shit I've ever wrote
Literally last summer I was down and out and fucking broke
Drinking every night, into a fucking building almost drove
Flexing on my Instagram I was the man, the shits a joke
Yeah, you gotta grow, gotta learn, gotta fight, gotta burn, gotta lose, gotta earn
Its part of the cycle, I'm here to dominate my rivals
Shit is crazy when you realize that your level's near your idols
My mom was pawning shit so we can stay afloat
But it seemed that every week we found more holes up in the boat
Yeah the world is crazy, its so cold, you better get your coat
You can hold me to it, one day man they gon say I'm the goat
Understand this music is my passion, Till I'm dead I got to have it
Put my story in these lyrics, my therapy is rapping
It don't matter how much pressure on me, stay solid like Granite
They tried to break me down, but on my two feet I'm still standing

I close my eyes and I'm drowning in the darkness, feeling like a carcass oh my God
Lately I've been feeling like the world's coming down on me, are you proud of me, my darling
Close my eyes and I can see you smiling, tell me does that smile bring you pain, bring you hardship
Looking at my life, trying to find where I lost it, find out where my heart is, oh my God