Dramaturgy

Knew it already fine, misery inside
At myself, I would laugh, fallen down behind
But I don't know a thing, love or losing, see?
So I threw to the side any human in me

If I live a lie of shallow words and empty replies
Then what am I?

Hitting walls of a stage that I couldn't break
Then it stuck in my head, gotta run away
Playing out like a scene, posing every lead
Near the end of the show, waiting in the wing, see?

Run to front stage, you're all actors anyway
No one to watch, you're all part of the play

There's no one inside me
There's no one that's hiding
Always been me, empty, a body but nobody here to see

So hurry up and bite down whoever you found
Game over, give it up now
Mayday, a double agent
Struggling over love and discontent
And here I wait for something to twist the plot dramatically again

Oh you too yes yes so take a deep breath
You know how this'll all end
Head shot, we took it too far
But if you aim, go for the heart
We're pulling at the boundary, unseen
A curtain dyed in black soon came to be
And knowing that those eyes are watching

Broke it all with a touch if I do recall
Hiding all of the shame, all I did was fall
We were young, never bound by a single sin
'Til before we could see, we were monsters in skin
But even if I had tried to move on, why can't I leave my past?

"Considering it's you, better give up soon"
"'Cause no matter what you do, you will always lose"
And then I was alone way before I knew
Blocking every little thought that I couldn't sit through
All they want now is safety from what's around
Waiting for help but never learning how

I don't wanna think now
I'll play dumb anyhow
Always been me, empty, a body but nobody here to see

So standing at the front line and maybe this time
I'll be there with a flag high
Outmatched but easygoing
Never gonna need a script with me
And here I keep them burning to twist the plot dramatically again

Oh you too yes yes so take a deep breath
Swear that you'll see me again
One chance is all I have now
And so I better make it count
Climatic ending, come see
The final act, I'm shaken to my knees
Yet crying and lonely

The world that I locked out is nowhere to find
The people who mocked me are gone from my sight
Emotions and feelings are useless to keep
The tears that had fallen were not mine to weep

The kindness and warmth, I can't feel them at all
The hands that are offered, I'm scared that I'll fall
The hole dug inside me can't hold any love
Instead you can see me break down from above

Hey, remember when you saw that they were nearing their end?
And you looked like you were laughing at the pain they were in?
But what did you see, oh really what could it be?
Well take a breath 'cause you'll need it, so c'mon
Saying always been me, empty, a body but nobody here to see

So hurry up and bite down whoever you found
Game over, give it up now
Mayday, a double agent
Struggling over love and discontent
And here I wait for something to twist the plot dramatically again

Oh you too yes yes so take a deep breath
You know how this'll all end
Head shot, we took it too far
But if you aim, go for the heart
We're pulling at the boundary, unseen
A curtain dyed in black soon came to be
And knowing that those eyes are watching