Hate Me Now

(album: Requiem For A Dream Deferred - 2019)

I need you to hate me, so I can use you for your energy
It's real shit man, feel this

Before I die, I'm gon' rise
Never seen a tear fall down my eye
But I can't lie, it's hard sometimes
Feeling like I just might lose my mind
But I'm trying to survive through the lies and deceit
These are a few of the things that I've seen

I've seen the real turn to fake, I've seen the love turn to hate
I've seen best friends turn into enemies, I just can't relate
Killing off my ego day by day until that bitch dissipates
I've been falling back, tryna put some points on the board Kobe fade away
They wanna take my soul, wanna take my heart, eat me like a Frito-Lay
As the lights get dimmer, I feel triggered, tracking my train of thought
Yeah, the air gets thinner higher you go ain't no room at the top
I'ma do my thing, I'ma make a million whether you like it or not
And it's been this way since I was knee-high, nose running with snot
Never off my shit, I'm on my J-O-B, your bitch gon' K.O.D and crown a nigga king of them thighs
I know these niggas plot, envy and lies in they eyes
You see myself in your reflection, it's really you you despise
Do me a favor, go and google Mob Ties
You only see the fairest skin and lightest hue of eyes
Zero correlation between you and I
Hatred of ones self, that sentence putrified
Purify these useless minds

Before I die, I'm gon' rise
Never seen a tear fall down my eye
But I can't lie, it's hard sometimes
Feeling like I just might lose my mind
But I'm trying to survive through the lies and deceit
These are a few of the things that I've seen

I've seen the mighty fall far, off a high horse to the floor
Lord, give me the strength to endure
To always bounce back for more
To never let my vision, foresight or my perspective become small
Counting all my blessings through this test of will and faith
But the game is like a fucking episode of Will and Grace
Tryna be calm, cool and collected but respected above all
When you're down and out without a dime to your name, who you call?
When the feeling hits your stomach like you're going through withdrawals of [?], lawd

I need you to hate me, so I can use you for your energy
It's real shit man, feel this

Before I die, I'm gon' rise
Never seen a tear fall down my eye
But I can't lie, it's hard sometimes
Feeling like I just might lose my mind
But I'm trying to survive through the lies and deceit
These are a few of the things that I've seen

It's real shit man
It's real shit man
I need you to hate me, so I can use you for your energy
It's real shit man, feel this