Santa Barbara

(album: Lyrics To GO, Vol. 2 - 2021)

Out in Lake Tahoe, gripping a Henny bottle
With a beautiful woman I met in Colorado
With a tree in a yard heavy with avocados
Always playing roles and trying to be the perfect model
I be unavailable, people don't know where I'm at
Doing what I'm here to do, living, fucking sharing raps
Say that I want happiness but it seem like I'm scared of that
She say she in love with me but I ain't really hearing that
Hopping out my bag, though, lighting up the candle
Hiding out in Santa Barbara, feet up in the sand, though
When I'm keeping busy, I feel like I got a handle
So I'm never idle or I might get suicidal
And when you trusting nothing, it's nothing that's getting by you
I'm in stealth mode, twenty-four-seven bringing the wealth home
Liquor, weed, and retail therapy out in Melrose
Hundred thousand messages taunting me on my cellphone
I just sit and wonder what is holding me back
And why it feel impossible just for my soul to relax
And I'm feeling so conflicted 'bout this shit that I've been given
I'm living to get up out of this cycle that's turning vicious, for real