Hard To Love

(album: XOXO - 2020)

Yeah oh oh

Hard for me to love, I know you got that hate inside your heart
How you expect me to give to you, when you ain't play your part
Got this feeling he been plottin I've been quick to cut him off
Got a curse for making goofys better believe these girls stay boss
Came a long way from finessing free base, gotta fuck it off
Don't try to put me in my past it ain't for you to talk about
Elevated my soul, they tryna put me in a box
They don't dream up a serenity that's bigger than a block
Where I'm from it's suicide if you don't move round with the glock
Homie cause they shot so often use to seeing bodies drop
Kinda numb these days I'm traumatized from all the blood I lost
Try to speak up on darkness but they tell me it's my fault
Just try to pray to God can you promise me tomorrow
I need patience that's within while they pay back all that they borrowed
Feel you close to me strong energy, think about you wherever I go
Spoke against me led you wrong, but you ain't really went and followed
They so quick to go and cap at you a joke making me laugh
Smiling in my face that's fronting so I gotta watch my back
Put my soul into my rap I know they feel me when I'm snapping
Try to jip me in the past. So why you made these days I'm flexing
Pretty sure they watching as I speak into existence
I kept track a lot of times I cried for help why didn't you listen
Canceled out what wasn't for me I don't trust if the intentions
How you love me for potential and would envy my ascension
Thinking back to 2017, how the fuck I let it slip
I got 9 live like I'm feline, I don't fall I get a grip
I can read you psychology like right off from the rip
I ain't friendly you ain't family, get the bread I gotta dip
West and east are fallen angels, used to you pour out a sip
I can't trust nobody I can tell the way you lying out your lips
Really hustle on my own. So I'ma stay up out the mix
The music help me solve my problems, gotta get it off my chest
You ever get the chance to know me you know I ain't like the rest
Ain't got no riders ain't no label I'm too real ain't gotta stress
If I lose it all today it's cool, what's use to having less
So every morning that I wake up there's reminder that I'm blessed
They all turn sour when I show love, there's no wonder why they press
I gotta it on my own reprisal so I'ma get my soul to cleanse
You know that feeling when you wish for something that you made exist
Since I was young I knew my purpose, I'm just making it make sense

They get me out, they count me out like it rained
I'll be around I hope they ready
They get me out, they count me out like it rained
I'll be around I hope they bet on it